Saturday, September 15, 2012

We'll all float on, all right

So, I'm not going to lie- it's been really hard keeping up blogging this semester. I can't say that I'm sick of writing, per say, but I can say that my news-writing class has drained the living daylights out of me. Along with just having no free time. Whatsoever.

Lately, it's almost like I've been floating... through school work, friends, family, leadership, my relationship with God and just life. Do you know what I mean though? Floating.
That whole, "I'm just getting through it all, not really remembering any of it and wondering what's happening next" thing. That's what's going on right now.
Half of it has to do with the fact that I have a head cold, which definitely affects my ability to focus and retain information. The other half is just weariness, I think. Sickness + weariness = oh man.

I do have to say that I am so extremely thankful for my relationship with Jesus Christ. I don't know how people do life without Him. It'd be miserable. It's so easy to feel very alone in this world, but if people really understood the essence of having a relationship with God, it would be impossible to be lonely.

I guess I've been over-thinking everything lately (which is what usually happens every September. I'm not sure what it is about September, but I always end up thinking about everything and anything and thinking about it for way too long). My major has been discouraging me, especially since I'm surrounded by so many talented writers and professors who assume we're already professional reporters with buckets of experience (neither of which are true). My amateurism can be slightly discouraging and even more overwhelming, but I'm trying to learn as much as possible and soak in any information that I can possible soak in. Unfortunately, since I'm in this whole "floating" stage, that's making everything all the more difficult.
My life.. I mean, who even knows what's happening tomorrow, let alone their lifetime? How am I supposed to know what to learn or where I'm going in life? Here I am, floating, and everyone else seems to be moving on (ya know, that "Wow, all of my friends are dating, engaged, married or having babies. how exciting" point in life. I'm sure you've been there).

Floating is so blah, but I guess it's another phase of life. It's bound to happen and when it does, we just have to enjoy the ride (cause I mean, who doesn't want to experience defying gravity?).

In the words of Modest Mouse, "We'll all float on, all right."

2 comments:

  1. Dear Daisy,

    I sense your dissatisfaction with floating, and will pray for you. At the same time, floating is better than sinking, so that's a good thing.

    Abide in Christ and float as He directs! My prayers will be that He does bring you joy in the floating.

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